Saturday, November 15, 2008

It's late and I can't sleep!

Hello Everyone,

It is 12:50 am and I can't sleep. I keep thinking about the upcoming treatments and eventually the long awaited stem cell transplant.

It is funny when your up late and have the house to yourself and hearing all the various noises you never hear when the kids are awake and the house is rocking.

Anyways, I wanted to let you know some of the things I have to do before I start the treatments. The first was to get a procedure call EGD, this is when they put a scope down your throat looking for problems. Did that last Tuesday and I still don't feel like myself.

The next procedure is a bone marrow biopsy followed by the CT scan and to wrap it up they now want to insert a "port" (a line that is put into my chest that taps into my main arteries). I will only have this in for about 9 months. :)

I have do all this before I start treatments!

I tell you this because it sucks! I don't like any of it and I am a bit tired of having to put up with it!

But, now that I have vented a bit, I am happy I have options! :)

We all have to do things we don't want to at some point in our lives! Ex. Going off to war, Putting up with a bad boss, dealing with cancer, etc.

What I have learned is I can do one of two things:
1) Feel sorry for myself and complain and make the ones I love feel pity for me
or
2) Man Up and walk with God as I face the challenge.

I choose #2!

I'm going to bed now!

Take care,

Gary

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Gary,
Our thoughts and prayers are with you now during this phase of your treatment. We know it is a struggle for you and your family but by God's strength you will get through this difficult part and on to stronger days ahead. I know a young woman who went through the same thing as you. After she finished the transplant procedure, she was blessed with a son which she never thought was possible. He is 1 1/2 now. Be encouraged! We pray that you will be blessed beyond anything you could imagine :)
Richard & Linda
Arkansas

Fran said...

Hi Gary,
I am happy that you have this blog to keep everyone up to date on your thoughts and feelings about what is going on with your treatment. Hopefully you will inspire others to be strong and grateful that there are treatments--miserable as they might be. I also hope that we can lift your spirits, knowing that our thoughts and prayers are with you daily.

Fran Held

Anonymous said...

Hey Gary,

I think you're making the right choices as well. I had one of those ports in my arm for a couple weeks when I had eye surgery a few years back. They aren't fun when you forget about them, and roll over (briefly!!) onto them in your sleep. Our family's thoughts and prayers are still with you and yours as you continue this fight. Stuff like this sure does have a way of "helping" you remember your priorities, doesn't it?

- Dave (from Brighton)

Name: Holly Bowne said...

We are so very much praying for God's peace which surpasses all understanding to be on you and your entire family, Gary.

Your incredibly, amazing, awesome drive to maintain a positive attitude is an inspiration to witness; and we just know it will also play a big part in your healing.

Stay strong.

Love,
The Bowne Family